So. Last night I had a heart to heart with my best friend and just broke down. I told him everything: about feeling inadequate and not good enough, and feeling like a failure and it really fueled my fire. Finally releasing all of that, and letting the negativity go, I’m able to realize the positives - it’s not too late and I can still do and be everything I want. It felt good to finally get it off my chest and talk to someone about it.
I promised him that I would use all of that as motivation to do what I want and need to do, and today it just feels good. Being productive again and making the necessary steps I need to make to prep my future. I feel like a weight has been lifted.